Fluffy May Not Be So Bad After All!

It's getting harder these days for me to stick to the healthy eating, but I'm doing it. Not willingly!  It's hard for me!  Last week my eating was great.  No sodas, no sugars, no breads, no pastas, (oye, kill me now!) etc., etc. Saturday came around and I thought, hmmm, today is my 'cheat day' and I really want to go all out, but, the feeling of guilt quickly set in.  I really wanted to have a soda and a big piece of cake, but my ass was telling me 'don't do it'! ugh!  I wanted to have a margarita and a huge basket of chips n salsa, but my ass was telling me 'don't do it'! I wanted junk food and I wanted it all.  I told my ass to shut up this time!  Instead, my sister and I went to Sea Island where I indulged just a little bit!  I ordered shrimp pasta with 'deliciousness sauce' and Krista ordered some shrimp plate that had three types of shrimp, fries, hush puppies and who knows what else!  I also ordered onion rings and a salad!  Oh, and I had a soda! I know, I know sounds bad, but here's the thing; I ate my salad first, had a few bites of the pasta, and about 4 onion rings.  Not too bad.  I did drink my soda, though!  Oh man, that was caffeine and sugar at it's best! I don't remember what I had Saturday night.  Obviously, it wasn't good or memorable!  Must of been my water and cottage cheese! I did work out that day as well.  So, I really didn't eat healthy but I didn't over do it either.  "Good job, Anna"!  Sunday comes around and I'm just staaarrrvvingg! I go to church and decide Jacob (who has been sick) needs some Chinese soup for his illness.  I couldn't admit that I was the one who wanted Chinese food!  My sister, the boys and I go to eat after church and I'm thinking, I can get a soup and maybe share a lunch plate.  Ya, that's exactly what I'll do.  That's exactly what I DIDN'T do.  I ordered my plate and let me tell ya, I was hungrier than I thought!  I licked that plate right up!  It was soooo good!  It was like I hadn't eaten in a week!  Oh! I really hadn't!  But nonetheless, I didn't eat the rest of the day-until...
Tony comes over and decides he wants Chester's Hamburgers.  Really? You've got to be kidding me! I'm gonna die!  Jacob and Austin both ordered a hot dog!  Dang it!  I went to work out with my sister and then I went to pick up their order of delicious calories.  The ride home with the food was utter torture!  It smelled like heaven!  I could of very easily 'taken the long way home', enjoyed their food and told them that the homeless guy at the light opened my car door and stole the food!  But, I had to do the right thing and stick to my healthy eating plan.  Boring. I get home and now my stomach is rumbling.  Bad sign!  I knew that if I didn't put something in it, I would eventually put a pencil in my eye or fist fight my loved ones for their food.  I hand picked a Lean Cuisine and tried to convince myself i was eating a frickn' chili cheese burger. Torture.  The LC portions are so small (no wonder people lose weight!) that it just wasn't gonna do.  I ate one tamale.  It was the best darn tamale in the entire world!  It was soooo good and I ate it very slowly, not for easy digestion, but so I could savor every last morsel/crumb! 
Monday comes around and I'm doing ok.  I had a healthy shake for breakfast and I was back on track...until Monday night.  I had pizza.  I HAD TO!  MONDAY NIGHT WATCHING THE BACHELOR WITH AN APPLE FOR DINNER= NO BUENO!  So, I decided to redo my 'cheat days'.  My new days to cheat are Saturday and Monday.  Today, Tuesday, I had a glass of milk for breakfast, a tuna sandwich on wheat and water for lunch, green tea and an apple for snack and rotisserie chicken with avocado (insert song; avocados de Mexico) for dinner. Not bad.  I think I can do it, as long as I don't deprive myself of every little thing.  But again, kuddos to y'all healthy eaters!  This sucks! lol

This morning, on my way to drop off Austin at school, the radio DJ's were talking about how people always decide to exercise more, lose weight, get fit, get trim, yadda, yadda, yadda at the beginning of the new year.  Myself included! Cliche.  But the DJ was actually telling a story of a guy who robbed some people on a bus and shot the driver at close range!  The driver should have died instantly is what the doctors were saying.  Instead, Mr. Fluffy himself survived the bullet!  The bullet was lodged in a row of his very own fat!!! Can you even imagine??!  How much fat was Mr. Fluffy really carrying around?  Damn!  I started to reconsider this over rated exercising and healthy eating stuff.  I mean, fat could actually save your life!  The guys on the radio were laughing and laughing- I was busy thinking about adding some rolls around my midsection for safety!  I live in the ghetto where crazies run after baby daddy's with knives and where illegal activity is just a way of life.  Fluffy may not be so bad after all!  lol 

No, no, no!  I must feel better!  I must feel better!  I must look better! I must feel better!  haha "Good luck, AnnaMarie"!!!
Until next time, ex,O, ex O!