My Support System

Today marks day 4 that my boys have been gone for summer vacation.  It feels like forever! I took out my calendar to count the many days I thought we had passed and to my disappointment, I only counted 4.  Insert sad face. This past weekend was logged into my brain as FAIL (minus a few precious moments).  Not only did my boys leave, I was forced to face other things that I WILL NOT give time to.  So, moving right along....
I've always been the person offering good words and hugs whenever needed.  This time I found myself in great need of hugs, kindness and words of healing.  It was no surprise to me that I've had several wonderful people who have been able to offer those things to me.  I used to pray for certain things that I wanted in life and I guess I still do in a way, but now my prayer is for wisdom.  I pray that God give me WISDOM to move forward, carry on and make decisions that will from here on out benefit ME and my BOYS! I will not allow negative words to hurt me, I will not allow what others think of me affect me.  I know that I am not perfect, but God has molded me into the person HE wants me to be and yes, I'm proud of that! I will continue to make mistakes because it's part of being human, I'm getting older and I can now see it grabbing a hold of me, I don't have all the things I want but good news is I've learned from my mistakes, I feel better about myself than I did years ago and I definitely HAVE all I need.  This comes from the Great One upstairs but I also believe He has sent angels to work on his behalf here on earth.  My support system! My family who loves me like no one else would, close friends who don't fill me with toxic words and my two sons who continue to make me a better person/mother.  I couldn't be more blessed! How do I repay these wonderful people? I have no idea.  Thank you isn't enough.  I need them to know that they have impacted my daily life with just the simple, free things life has to offer! I'm so humbled by the their generosity, the time spent on the phone, the messages sent to check on me and all the love that fills my aching heart! I love each person for who they are and what they bring to my family/friendships.  I pray for those who don't feel that kind of love in hopes that one day they will!  This entry is solely about the blessing I feel at this moment, even though I go home to a quiet home. It won't be quiet for long and that's my silver lining! In the mean time, I'm baking cookies, exercising, taking long, relaxing baths, crafting, spending quality time with family and friends and praying a whole lot! So, even though I feel so blessed, please keep me in your prayers and I will do the same for each of you.  Much love! I'm hoping my next entry will have some sarcasm and humor! Back to my roots, if ya will!

~Imperfect Me